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My parents have thought that I've been depressed since I came home from Morgantown in November. I will always deny them. But I remember depression commercials from back in Italy and it talked about feelings of inadequacy and how they interlined with being depressed. And now, I feel like the word inadequate will never be close to how I feel. I can't talk to anyone about how I feel really, because nobody knows what I'm going through. I mean, yeah, they know WHAT I'm going through, but they can't comprehend the emotions that I get when I think about what happened and when I replay everything in my head.

Here's my thing, I hear about all of these depressed people committing suicide. I could never do anything like that, it's just one of those things that is so far past something I'm capable of, but lord knows I've thought about it countless times.

I don't want to know my parents reaction if I gave into their thoughts of "depression." I feel as though they would do the whole "oh you're not depressed," thing, counteracting on their original thoughts.

I really just want for it all to be gone. I feel like if I could talk to Christiane, then everything would be fine. But she has let me go..

Where'd You Go (Music Video Genre)

I Miss You (Music Video Genre)

Should've not.

So I'm here at WVU. I got into this girl. Too fast. We've been here before haven't we? She's got a mission and I'm collateral damage.

HOLLY LET ME OUT!

A-Rod.

Alright A-Rod hit the 600th HR today and I was watching Around the Horn when they asked if A-Rod was Hall of Fame. My answer? Yes. Take away the offense in Texas and look at the stats (as of August 4, 2010) He hits .300, 444 HRs, over 2000 hits, 1400 RBIs, and here's what are most important to me. He is a 10 time All-Star, 1 MVP Award, 2-time Gold Glove winner, and has won 1 Hank Aaron Award. Also, he will become a member of the 300-300. The 7th person inducted into the club. If not for the move to New York with the Yankees not willing to move Jeter, he would have 8 or 9 Gold Gloves compared to Jeter's 4. He's one of most complete players in MLB history with Barry Bonds, Willie Mays, Hank Aaron, Ken Griffey Jr., Honus Wagner, amongst others.
This guy is Hall of Fame. Also, take away the numbers from '01-'03 and redo the season completely, he's still going to put up 35+ HRs, 100 RBIs, around 90 runs, and about 15 steals.

This guy is Hall of Fame. I don't care about steroids. Just like Bonds, I still believe he's Hall of Fame.

What'd you do?

You did nothing. I'm tired. Just believe me. Okay?
<3

Dear girl,

You know that I don't like when you talk about other dudes. But I'm trying my hardest to help you get through your issues. I hope you see that and I hope you know that it still hurts. But I guess it's the sacrifice I make right? Tonight sucked, but you helped make it better than originally slated.

Thanks